Thursday, June 12, 2008
LOOOOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGG {1:22 AM}
Hello, long time no post.
Monday, woke up at 12plus, prepared, kairen came over to my house and my father drove us to cp and met up with other ppl. Put stuffs into my dad's car and went to east coast with kr huayao and gab in my dad's car while suzhen jessica justin and naqib took bus there. After we reached, we set up the tent, then started playing poker card while waiting for suzhen and the rest of the people to arrive. Arrived, start to prepare the food and start the fire. Took quite some time to get the fire started. It's hard to get the fire started with many people. After that bbq food all these. Time flies when we are having fun. Soon it is 12am already and gabriel had to go home. Jessica left with ah tu before gabriel left. Then after that cleaned up the table and stuff. Went to bathe after that. So cold man the water. After a cold bath, it feels so great. Went back to the tent there and after that, kairen huayao justin and naqib went off to explore the place while i stayed behind at the tent with suzhen as i am very tired. Not long after, suzhen fell asleep. And soon i get bored. I stayed inside the camp with suzhen sleeping beside me and after some time sitting there doing nothing, my mind wondered off to think about ghost. And i started to get scared as the tent opening is facing the sea and when i am inside the tent, i cannot see anything but the sea only with a few trees infront. I quickly close the opening of the tent and went inside there. It's quite scary when the grass around the tent moved probaly due to the wind and make some noise. And so i fell asleep inside the tent.
When i wake up, it is already 6am plus. Went to watch the sunrise and took some pictures. Went to wash up and changed clothes and pack the tent. Walked quite a long distance to go to the busstop. Rested at macdonald there. Then i thought got something drop onto my hair and i felt it moving inside my hair and i keep asking suzhen to see if anything is inside then she go mess up my hair purposely, then i got a little unhappy and then she gave attitude and said she do not want to share breakfast with me. And so i took my stuffs and just walk off by myself. I think it is because that i am tired and that is why i get pissed easily. Reached some place after walking quite a distance and looked around to find any bus stops because i don't know how to go home. While looking at the bus thingy, i found one bus which goes to ajunied mrt startion in just 8 stops. took the bus 183 and went to aljunied bus stop and took train to kallang. And so i can now comfirm that i am a person who gets easily pissed when i am tired no matter who they are, and whenever i am pissed, i will do anything that i feel like doing at that moment only to regret my actions when my anger is gone away. Anyway we're okay already when she finally lose out to give in to me and msg me. MUAHAHAHAHHA.
Went to my aunt house. Bathe there and it feels so damn good. Fell asleep and the sofa and my cousin woke me up and after that my aunt asked me to go into her room to take a nap and so i went to nap again. Woke up at about 4pm plus. Ate my lunch and played the Nitendo DS with my cousin. Watched tv and soon it's 12am already. My aunt's husband came back and he bought my iron man ps2 game. Nice. He also bought the show What Happens In Vegas. Shall wait for them to finish watching the show before borrowing from them. Watched tv again as they are going to sleep and went home at about 2am.
And while i am walking past the old buildings around my aunt house and my grandmother house, i have some kind of a special feeling, a kind of feeling that i don't know how to describe. It is a very nice feeling because the feeling will make me think of the past when i am young, i would always stay at my grandmother house on every saturday till very ate about 1 am plus, then i would walk by myself all the way to my aunt house and it is those kind of nice feeling that i will feel because when i get there, i can play ps2 and it is very fun at my aunt house and also the next day, my aunt and her husband would bring us to shopping mall the next day which means that i can buy toys . The feeling cannot be described because i know of no words that can describe it and some other feelings that i had experienced before and i don't know how to describe it are like the feeling to be trapped in a small space and movement are restricted, i will have a kind of special feeling which cannot be described and i would feel like exerting full force to get out of it, One more feeling which i don't know how to describe is the feeling that comes to me when i am outside for a long time and i will think of my home, it is not the same feeling as homesick, it is a special feeling which makes me wanna go home right away that kind. ( i bet u all don't fully understand what i am talking about because i said it in such a way that i would be able to remember the feeling next time if i forget how it feels and i read this post.)
Also, i think it is better to jot down things about the people close to you, every little things that they did to make you feel important to them, or making them feel important to you because if they ever go away, you wouldn't be able to remember much about them just like how i don't really remember about the things that my grandparents will always do and the things that they do to me to make me feel loved. I would really want to have memories about everyone close to me because i don't wanna forget things about them.
And and and, i think that life is such a cruel thing because the more you love a person, the harder it is for you to take it when they leave you. Take our parents for example, we love them alot and they had been around us for like so many years. What if one day they are to leave us? as in pass away. It would be a very sad feeling and when you are sad, you will want your parents to console you and when they pass away, you wouldn't get that kind of consoling, every morning when you wake up, you will find your parent's bed empty, when you reach home, your house would be pitch dark as there are no people at home. Right now if this happens to me(cross fingers!!), i wouldn't know how to cope with it. Think of it seriously and deeply, you wouldn't want it to happen to you but it is just a case of sooner or later, so there is nothing that we can do about it except to cherish the things that you have now and make sure that you have no regrets when they pass away one day. Unless if you have something which makes you and the people around you live forever. I think that it is best to treat the people that you care for the most the best because you really wouldn't want to regret not doing something for the person when they pass away, like what i didn't do on the day before my grandma pass away. It is on a tuesday night, if am not wrong. I am at my grandmother house with all the relatives there and it is very crowded. At about 12am plus, i had to go home because i have school tomorrow and i will go back to my grandmother house the day after the next day because is the national day. Ane before i left my grandmother house, while i am standing at the gate there, i looked at my grandmother and she looked at me waiting for me to say goodbye, but i don't know why i didn't say gooodbye or anything or wave or whatsoever and i just turned at walked off. Then the very next day while i am in school having my chinese lesson in 2e2, my mom called justin hp and told me that my grandma had passed away, the feeling that i experienced when she told me in her sad voice is really unforgettable, it is a very scary voice. I was so shocked when she told me that. And till today when i think of the voice of my mother telling me about my grandma death, i would still feel very scared and shock. And so from that day onwards, whenever my mom called my hp during lesson time, i would feel very uneasy because i am afraid that it might be another bad news.
Okay continue......my dad fetched me home and went to the shops along the side after the serangoon fly over to buy some supper. It is very convinient to have a car! Reached home, played computer for a little while and went off to play the game iron man. Wasn't as good as i expected. Went to bed at 6am, very late i know.
Wednesday... Woke up at 3pm reaching 4. Played the game iron man and ate my dinner and played again after dinner until now. I now have enough money to buy the iron man mark one toy already, but i do not know whether to buy it or not because i have only 30 dollar with me, and the toy is 19.90:( And i will be left with 10 dollar after that, which means no movie. I want to watch the show The Incredible Hulk and You Don't Mess With The Zohan.
This is what happens when i linger around blogger for a long time, i have a long post. Cos i am waiting for naqib to send me the pics on that day of bbq. Intended to upload it but there are still some pictures that he had yet to send me and i had to go off already or else i would be sleeping later than ever. Shall upload the pics tomorrow after i had all of them.
Goodbye~ off to watch the RV movie.
Monday, woke up at 12plus, prepared, kairen came over to my house and my father drove us to cp and met up with other ppl. Put stuffs into my dad's car and went to east coast with kr huayao and gab in my dad's car while suzhen jessica justin and naqib took bus there. After we reached, we set up the tent, then started playing poker card while waiting for suzhen and the rest of the people to arrive. Arrived, start to prepare the food and start the fire. Took quite some time to get the fire started. It's hard to get the fire started with many people. After that bbq food all these. Time flies when we are having fun. Soon it is 12am already and gabriel had to go home. Jessica left with ah tu before gabriel left. Then after that cleaned up the table and stuff. Went to bathe after that. So cold man the water. After a cold bath, it feels so great. Went back to the tent there and after that, kairen huayao justin and naqib went off to explore the place while i stayed behind at the tent with suzhen as i am very tired. Not long after, suzhen fell asleep. And soon i get bored. I stayed inside the camp with suzhen sleeping beside me and after some time sitting there doing nothing, my mind wondered off to think about ghost. And i started to get scared as the tent opening is facing the sea and when i am inside the tent, i cannot see anything but the sea only with a few trees infront. I quickly close the opening of the tent and went inside there. It's quite scary when the grass around the tent moved probaly due to the wind and make some noise. And so i fell asleep inside the tent.
When i wake up, it is already 6am plus. Went to watch the sunrise and took some pictures. Went to wash up and changed clothes and pack the tent. Walked quite a long distance to go to the busstop. Rested at macdonald there. Then i thought got something drop onto my hair and i felt it moving inside my hair and i keep asking suzhen to see if anything is inside then she go mess up my hair purposely, then i got a little unhappy and then she gave attitude and said she do not want to share breakfast with me. And so i took my stuffs and just walk off by myself. I think it is because that i am tired and that is why i get pissed easily. Reached some place after walking quite a distance and looked around to find any bus stops because i don't know how to go home. While looking at the bus thingy, i found one bus which goes to ajunied mrt startion in just 8 stops. took the bus 183 and went to aljunied bus stop and took train to kallang. And so i can now comfirm that i am a person who gets easily pissed when i am tired no matter who they are, and whenever i am pissed, i will do anything that i feel like doing at that moment only to regret my actions when my anger is gone away. Anyway we're okay already when she finally lose out to give in to me and msg me. MUAHAHAHAHHA.
Went to my aunt house. Bathe there and it feels so damn good. Fell asleep and the sofa and my cousin woke me up and after that my aunt asked me to go into her room to take a nap and so i went to nap again. Woke up at about 4pm plus. Ate my lunch and played the Nitendo DS with my cousin. Watched tv and soon it's 12am already. My aunt's husband came back and he bought my iron man ps2 game. Nice. He also bought the show What Happens In Vegas. Shall wait for them to finish watching the show before borrowing from them. Watched tv again as they are going to sleep and went home at about 2am.
And while i am walking past the old buildings around my aunt house and my grandmother house, i have some kind of a special feeling, a kind of feeling that i don't know how to describe. It is a very nice feeling because the feeling will make me think of the past when i am young, i would always stay at my grandmother house on every saturday till very ate about 1 am plus, then i would walk by myself all the way to my aunt house and it is those kind of nice feeling that i will feel because when i get there, i can play ps2 and it is very fun at my aunt house and also the next day, my aunt and her husband would bring us to shopping mall the next day which means that i can buy toys . The feeling cannot be described because i know of no words that can describe it and some other feelings that i had experienced before and i don't know how to describe it are like the feeling to be trapped in a small space and movement are restricted, i will have a kind of special feeling which cannot be described and i would feel like exerting full force to get out of it, One more feeling which i don't know how to describe is the feeling that comes to me when i am outside for a long time and i will think of my home, it is not the same feeling as homesick, it is a special feeling which makes me wanna go home right away that kind. ( i bet u all don't fully understand what i am talking about because i said it in such a way that i would be able to remember the feeling next time if i forget how it feels and i read this post.)
Also, i think it is better to jot down things about the people close to you, every little things that they did to make you feel important to them, or making them feel important to you because if they ever go away, you wouldn't be able to remember much about them just like how i don't really remember about the things that my grandparents will always do and the things that they do to me to make me feel loved. I would really want to have memories about everyone close to me because i don't wanna forget things about them.
And and and, i think that life is such a cruel thing because the more you love a person, the harder it is for you to take it when they leave you. Take our parents for example, we love them alot and they had been around us for like so many years. What if one day they are to leave us? as in pass away. It would be a very sad feeling and when you are sad, you will want your parents to console you and when they pass away, you wouldn't get that kind of consoling, every morning when you wake up, you will find your parent's bed empty, when you reach home, your house would be pitch dark as there are no people at home. Right now if this happens to me(cross fingers!!), i wouldn't know how to cope with it. Think of it seriously and deeply, you wouldn't want it to happen to you but it is just a case of sooner or later, so there is nothing that we can do about it except to cherish the things that you have now and make sure that you have no regrets when they pass away one day. Unless if you have something which makes you and the people around you live forever. I think that it is best to treat the people that you care for the most the best because you really wouldn't want to regret not doing something for the person when they pass away, like what i didn't do on the day before my grandma pass away. It is on a tuesday night, if am not wrong. I am at my grandmother house with all the relatives there and it is very crowded. At about 12am plus, i had to go home because i have school tomorrow and i will go back to my grandmother house the day after the next day because is the national day. Ane before i left my grandmother house, while i am standing at the gate there, i looked at my grandmother and she looked at me waiting for me to say goodbye, but i don't know why i didn't say gooodbye or anything or wave or whatsoever and i just turned at walked off. Then the very next day while i am in school having my chinese lesson in 2e2, my mom called justin hp and told me that my grandma had passed away, the feeling that i experienced when she told me in her sad voice is really unforgettable, it is a very scary voice. I was so shocked when she told me that. And till today when i think of the voice of my mother telling me about my grandma death, i would still feel very scared and shock. And so from that day onwards, whenever my mom called my hp during lesson time, i would feel very uneasy because i am afraid that it might be another bad news.
Okay continue......my dad fetched me home and went to the shops along the side after the serangoon fly over to buy some supper. It is very convinient to have a car! Reached home, played computer for a little while and went off to play the game iron man. Wasn't as good as i expected. Went to bed at 6am, very late i know.
Wednesday... Woke up at 3pm reaching 4. Played the game iron man and ate my dinner and played again after dinner until now. I now have enough money to buy the iron man mark one toy already, but i do not know whether to buy it or not because i have only 30 dollar with me, and the toy is 19.90:( And i will be left with 10 dollar after that, which means no movie. I want to watch the show The Incredible Hulk and You Don't Mess With The Zohan.
This is what happens when i linger around blogger for a long time, i have a long post. Cos i am waiting for naqib to send me the pics on that day of bbq. Intended to upload it but there are still some pictures that he had yet to send me and i had to go off already or else i would be sleeping later than ever. Shall upload the pics tomorrow after i had all of them.
Goodbye~ off to watch the RV movie.